So today was just a little bit better. I think this guy has a crush on me =] He walked around school with me all morning, asking questions trying to get to know me and he's such a cuttie! But I'm not sure if I want to date him =/

I was talking to a friend in one of my classes and I was telling him why I wasn't at school thursday and we got to talking and..well.. I don't know if it was a joke.. but he asked me to be friends with benifits  o.0 Wow.. I don't get asked that everyday haha.

Maybe...maybe not. I don't want to ruin a good friendship.

so She did NOT ignore me today. I was ready to yell and scream but calmed myself down before I spoke. At first she wasn't talking to me but I got in her conversation anyways, rude, i know, but I don't want to fight about little things. But next time is the last time. I know I realy do say that a lot but I'm very serious this time. I can't handle anymore stress and she's a big problem to me.

So the rest of the day I just laughed away then went to sleep...

But now.. I can hardly breath.. May 7th.. How could I forget? I didn't even know the date so I never thought about it. Thursday was the day that would have been me and HIS one year if I didn't ruin everything..Nick...That's his beautiful name.. I miss him so much.. I love him so much.. And wednesdays his birthday...I'm getting back to being very depressed again. I can't take this anymore. I really want to be with him.. what do I do? How do I get over it? Or.. since I can't ever get over anything.. How should I deal with all my anger.. all my stress... all my sadness? Tell me a way to find myself when I feel lost. Someone please help me?